Thought for my life

"smile big and wide...it makes people wonder what you are up to" --not sure

So i love this quote. I used it alot on my mission and it always semmed to work. If i can get someone to smile in the day then my mission is complete. I still live by this rule. Its something i saw my grandpa do. He always was smiling good or bad and trying to make the best out of situations. I love him and miss him alot but i know that he would want me to continue to smile and make the best out of everyday. Once today is over its gone forever. I only can look towards and change the future. Man dont i sound smart.

Difficulty

So life is being really difficult. i got me head scans back and there is no problem with cancer or tumors. DARN! now that may seem a bit weird but i really thought that i had something wrong with me and now they dont know what it is. So its getting worse and they have me on meds not knowing what i have. I dont get it. its been forever and i swear theres something wrong but they say no.
Life as a RM should be better. i guess its pretty sweet. i am not complaining but i am just trying to figure things out. Its rough. I dont know what i am supposed to do and what i do want to do has no definate time or guarantee. We are trying to join the pipefitters or hvac or electrical union but we just got word that it could take 2 months to 2 years to find us a place to start working at as an aprentice. I am so down now cause i thought it would be faster. It most likely will be faster but theres the chance that i have no experience that i wont get on that quick. But if i am an electricioner then i already have friends in the system from scouts and they can get me some start work. I dont know what to do.
Then theres girls...LOL thats a big topic and i wont cover it but i would like to say they cost time and that is something that i cant seem to find around here. We live really far away from the city and thats where most of my people are. So my best friends live farther away and any one that i used to hang out with now has new friends. So i have almost no buddy cept for my sister and blake. Everyone else just seems to be soooo busy in their lives that we cant do anything ne more. its fine with me i dont want them to drop everything and be my buddies all the time but i am just missin out and i dont have anyone to do that stuff with that is not married. LOL But i do love the friends that i do have and i am thankful for them.
I got a remote control airplane and the 2nd day i crashed it. So i got new parts and they arrived broken...well one did. So they are sending me more supplies for free. i was ticked but at least i can fly tomorrow...cross fingers that all goes well. You can see footage of our first try at flying as soon as i get the videos from angie.

Well i like this blog stuff. Hope i didnt bore ya. now time to sleep and see if my head will stop pounding like a hammer :(

Settlers

So i dont have pics yet...i am still trying to figure out this technology stuff since i have been back. i am getting the jist of it but its takin me a while to do it. So last saturday we played settlers of katan. It was alot of fun. i however did not win i was way behind and angie...of course...dominated the game. But we did introduce someone new to the game...Alina is now a knowledgable person of the game. Just like othello minutes to learn lifetime to master. This game is sooooo much fun. So then on sunday i went back over to the brinkerhoffs and we played the other version cities and knights. HOLY SMOKES that was a long game. Both games lasted til after midnight. But on sunday i left at 1230 and the tow truck was almost right to my truck to take it away. i would have been so ticked off had he taken it away. So back to the game. blake won this time. i had a very bad spot and didnt get cards nor moves the entire game. It was very slim pickins on both sides of the board. i think that 3 players had a lot to do with it...we coulda used 4 but she was busy at the moment and didnt want to come and play so shes excused. Ne way i suggest ne one who doesent have it to get it and we are more than willing to teach how to play.

I am legend

Man if i aint already afraid of the dark...FREAK! that was an awesome movie. i watched it by myself FINALLY on my laptop. I had a configuration problem and it wouldnt read my disc. So i used my intelligence...thank you google.com and i figure it out. I have to say that will smith is my all time favorite male actor. He does AMAZING clean awesome stuff and i am very impressed with this day and age. He said he wanted his career to be something that his kids could watch and not be embarassed about. Well i think hes accomplished that quite nice now.
So back to the movie. Those creatures were freaky. holy cow.