Difficulty

So life is being really difficult. i got me head scans back and there is no problem with cancer or tumors. DARN! now that may seem a bit weird but i really thought that i had something wrong with me and now they dont know what it is. So its getting worse and they have me on meds not knowing what i have. I dont get it. its been forever and i swear theres something wrong but they say no.
Life as a RM should be better. i guess its pretty sweet. i am not complaining but i am just trying to figure things out. Its rough. I dont know what i am supposed to do and what i do want to do has no definate time or guarantee. We are trying to join the pipefitters or hvac or electrical union but we just got word that it could take 2 months to 2 years to find us a place to start working at as an aprentice. I am so down now cause i thought it would be faster. It most likely will be faster but theres the chance that i have no experience that i wont get on that quick. But if i am an electricioner then i already have friends in the system from scouts and they can get me some start work. I dont know what to do.
Then theres girls...LOL thats a big topic and i wont cover it but i would like to say they cost time and that is something that i cant seem to find around here. We live really far away from the city and thats where most of my people are. So my best friends live farther away and any one that i used to hang out with now has new friends. So i have almost no buddy cept for my sister and blake. Everyone else just seems to be soooo busy in their lives that we cant do anything ne more. its fine with me i dont want them to drop everything and be my buddies all the time but i am just missin out and i dont have anyone to do that stuff with that is not married. LOL But i do love the friends that i do have and i am thankful for them.
I got a remote control airplane and the 2nd day i crashed it. So i got new parts and they arrived broken...well one did. So they are sending me more supplies for free. i was ticked but at least i can fly tomorrow...cross fingers that all goes well. You can see footage of our first try at flying as soon as i get the videos from angie.

Well i like this blog stuff. Hope i didnt bore ya. now time to sleep and see if my head will stop pounding like a hammer :(